Thursday, January 31, 2013

Christian, yes; Republican, no.

Growing up my family didn't talk much about politics except for the school board elections.  My parents always voted, but other than that were pretty apolitical.  I've since realized that this is probably because my mom and dad disagree on a lot of political issues!  I first realized my own political leaning when I graduated college.  My first job was at a Cristo Rey high school - a Catholic high school that serves low income, urban students through a work-study program.  The people I worked with were mostly democrats, mainly because of social justice concerns.  I, too, found my place as a democrat.  (A few years back, I would have classified myself as pro-choice, but as I discuss in this post, I am now pro-life)

I've moved twice since then to new cities.  In each place, I've been surrounded by conservative, republican Christians.  And people have just assumed that I fall in line with them.  I'm still not very comfortable talking politics, so it's easiest just to let people make their assumptions about me and I generally avoid political conversations anyhow.  But recently I had a conversation that has made me rethink this tactic of just avoiding the issue.  I had a conversation where some comments were made about homosexuality and marriage.  I just ignored the comments, neither agreeing nor disagreeing, but looking back I realize that by not saying anything, I in essence agreed.  I still don't really want to get into debates because I'm just as passionate about my views as the next guy, and likely I'll just end up really mad, but I at least want to stand up and speak up in support of things that I hold to be true.

So yes, I'm a Christian.  No, I'm not a republican.  I'm pro-life; I'm for marriage equality; I'm a pacifist; I want stricter gun control laws; I think everyone should have access to birth control; I think "Obamacare" is not perfect, but it's a lot better than before; I really wish we had universal health care; and I support government programs that help the poor.  That's my political leaning in a nutshell :-)

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

"The Baby Shower"

Recently I've started re-watching the series "Sex and the City".  Last night I watched the episode entitled "The Baby Shower" where the four ladies travel to Connecticut for the baby shower of a woman who used to have a great job and party with the best of them.  With the exception of Charlotte, the ladies are very critical of this woman's new lifestyle, and as the show progresses, we see that the mom-to-be also misses her life in the spotlight.  The show, which usually makes me smile and laugh, made me angry.  I didn't appreciate the stereotypical portrayal of marriage and raising a family.  But that's not really what I want to write about today.

Since watching that episode, I've taken some time to critically analyze where I am and if I'm happy.  I am happy.  Very happy.  I'm finally past that stressful adjustment period (this time from moving cities and having a third kid).  To be honest, after most major life changes I have had a hard time - moving the Kansas, having my first kid, having a second kid, etc.  Each time it took about three months before I was able to stop crying and stop wishing that I could go back.  But you know what, each time I was so happy that I continued forward on this great path.  I love my life.  I am shocked to say it, but I am fulfilled staying at home and raising my kids.  Sure my life is far from what I imagined as a kid (I would be designing roller coasters and living in this HUGE house by the post office in my hometown!), but I don't have any regrets.  I don't look back and wish I could change things.  (Well, technically I wish I could go back and make my wedding dress fit better and make some changes with our kitchen counters! - but no changes of real substance!  Ha!) 
I am blessed.  I am thankful.  I am grateful.  I am so glad that I chose to follow my heart/gut/God's prompting at each fork in the road.  I have been true to myself and that has made all the difference. 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Blogging & nap time

I've said it before and I'll say it again... I love reading blogs!  I love reading people's insights on life.  I wish I could be better about writing everyday because I enjoy my insights on life!  A few days ago I read back over some posts on this blog and I found myself smiling.  I like seeing where I have been and how I reflected on it.


I am actually enjoying being a stay-at-home mom, but find that it leaves me very little free time.  Nap time is the only time of day when I am alone with my thoughts.  When I was teaching, I had my planning period and lunch, so about 75 minutes of "me" time each day.  I miss that.  I need that.  I need time to process my day.  The boys will nap for about 2 hours, but Lucy refuses!  She likes her naps at about 45 minutes each.  And of course not while her brothers are sleeping!  But today I may have gotten lucky.  Maybe, just maybe they are actually all asleep at once.  So I can sit down, and put my feet up, and try to reflect, try to process, try to just be.