Thursday, January 31, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Since watching that episode, I've taken some time to critically analyze where I am and if I'm happy. I am happy. Very happy. I'm finally past that stressful adjustment period (this time from moving cities and having a third kid). To be honest, after most major life changes I have had a hard time - moving the Kansas, having my first kid, having a second kid, etc. Each time it took about three months before I was able to stop crying and stop wishing that I could go back. But you know what, each time I was so happy that I continued forward on this great path. I love my life. I am shocked to say it, but I am fulfilled staying at home and raising my kids. Sure my life is far from what I imagined as a kid (I would be designing roller coasters and living in this HUGE house by the post office in my hometown!), but I don't have any regrets. I don't look back and wish I could change things. (Well, technically I wish I could go back and make my wedding dress fit better and make some changes with our kitchen counters! - but no changes of real substance! Ha!)
Thursday, January 17, 2013
I've said it before and I'll say it again... I love reading blogs! I love reading people's insights on life. I wish I could be better about writing everyday because I enjoy my insights on life! A few days ago I read back over some posts on this blog and I found myself smiling. I like seeing where I have been and how I reflected on it.
I am actually enjoying being a stay-at-home mom, but find that it leaves me very little free time. Nap time is the only time of day when I am alone with my thoughts. When I was teaching, I had my planning period and lunch, so about 75 minutes of "me" time each day. I miss that. I need that. I need time to process my day. The boys will nap for about 2 hours, but Lucy refuses! She likes her naps at about 45 minutes each. And of course not while her brothers are sleeping! But today I may have gotten lucky. Maybe, just maybe they are actually all asleep at once. So I can sit down, and put my feet up, and try to reflect, try to process, try to just be.